If you do something for yourself, like athletes, to find happiness in victory, being dissatisfied and unhappy “at this hour”, this is simply stubbornness, where disappointment will ultimately await you. In my case, this stubbornness expands me like a vessel that can hold even more or capture even more energy, attention, the sacred - in the most inconspicuous. It's like swimming at a depth of 3 kilometers without scuba gear. It seems pointless, no doubt, as long as it’s dark and no one is there. But at a depth of 100 meters, where only a professional could, you don’t even open your eyes. That's what it's for. I see my line of fate not as a picture, but as a spectrum of possible events - and all sorts of rising silhouettes, scenes where my face is. Believe me, there is nothing to do there simply by being wise or strong. There either be a ray on behalf of the NAME and God, or it’s better not at all. This is my burden, experience, fate, line, circumstances, this is my insight - and I only have to carry it and find peace in overcoming myself. For centuries.