Soldier. Something gray, faceless, in the same impersonal form, with the same fate, the essence of which is battle. And death in battle. Soldier. This is something on the edge, on the edge, beyond. It is low in high and high in low. This is cowardice in feat and feat in cowardice. And whoever is not afraid is just an idiot! Soldier. Poems, memoirs, novels, novellas and short stories have been written about him. I tried to add my understanding of this phenomenon. How did it happen and did it work out? You be the judge, reader. Third edition, expanded and expanded. Contains obscene language.