It all started when Jan Haigerer killed a man. Just like that, without hesitation, he pulled the trigger of the gun. And from now on he is no longer a respected editor of a well-known publishing house, or a popular journalist. He is a pariah, a murderer from whom everyone has turned their backs. He faces a jury trial. What do these people know about him? They are not given the opportunity to find out what he was thinking about at the moment when he shot, what he felt during the terrible nights in the cell. No one knows about the motives for this strange and terrible act except Ian himself. But he has reasons to hide the truth...