With age, the matrix becomes an increasingly harsh and unfavorable environment. We develop a list of things with which we consciously and unconsciously burden ourselves, so our lives increasingly resemble following given algorithms. This quickly becomes a difficult habit, and it seems that the world will never again be as bright as before, as in childhood. Although in fact it is enough to simply disable the autopilot in the system. As we grow up, everything suddenly changes imperceptibly, and we remember with nostalgia how we were able to distinguish a vibrant life from a dull existence. Published in the author's edition, preserving the author's spelling and punctuation.