How do rejection of the world and admiration for it, faith and doubt, optimism and pessimism, love and hate, life and death, beginning and end, coexist? Why does nature need man? Does he move towards the pinnacle of meaning or does he meander like a hare and reach the final line, hung with losses as if he were prey? The author tries to find his answers to eternal questions, to reveal the connection of the apparently unconnected, and often directly opposite, to trace in detail the movements of the soul, as far as possible. Understand the true motives of actions, look for a justification for a separate life and the thorny path to forgiveness. Meetings and conversations with famous personalities named in the novel by their real names are reliable. As for the revelations promised in the title of the novel, there is no need to delude yourself. Remembering the truth is difficult, sometimes impossible - unfulfilled desires and missed chances stifle us. Inspired lies are more merciful.