An illusion novel in which reality, real and imaginary memories play a strange game with the reader. The main character, in an attempt to give meaning to a haunting scene from his childhood, which literally separates him from non-existence, will go deep into the labyrinth of the past. Attempts to reproduce the events of his life will lead him to the unstable world of symbols, where reality is inseparable from fantasies, and fantasies from dreams, news, advertising and millions of pages on social networks. Only an irresistible craving for love will not allow him to give up, despite external obstacles in the person of the pathologist, on whose table he will find himself. However, even here everything will not be so clear. Each chapter of the novel strives for independence, and at the same time, together they form a single canvas.