My consciousness was splitting in two with active haste. On the one hand, it was still a little embarrassing to put on the clothes of a newly-minted false prophet, and on the other hand, I really wanted to appear in the role of a herald of the new faith, so that I could wisely and unhinderedly broadcast truths, have disciples and, who knows, maybe suffer for the common cause . I understood that the height of indecency is the search for fame for the sake of fame, I understood that true virtue does not need noisy self-promotion, and at the same time, the messiah who had taken possession of me was already screaming.