In this book priest from Amsterdam an archpriest Сергий Овсянников together with readers searches a way to freedom. Once, centuries ago, a metropolitan Anthony Сурожский, рукополагая future father Сергия, said to him: "Study to be by itself". To be at leisure and to be by itself is not the same? About it, and also about that, how humanity lost freedom, about fear and about passion as deadlocks on a way and about work as exit on will is this book. For author a turn to internal freedom happened centuries ago in clink, there for him words sounded: "Freedom can be only in God".