“I am a theater artist, all my life I have been collecting bits and pieces of what related to my father’s life, and in the 21st century I read his thoughts and experienced his suffering. It’s hard to go into the past, it’s hard to relive everything again. The book of my father’s life slammed shut in the forty-seventh year, and his diaries revealed to me how difficult his last years were, how he alone walked his way to Calvary - experienced the collapse of faith and, worst of all, , experienced betrayal by friends and misunderstanding in the family. Unfortunately, we, the children, could not help him in any way, because we were too small. Now I am almost twice as old as my father, and reading what he wrote, I rethought my childhood tragedy and childhood pain, she, my current assessment of those days, became deeper and more voluminous. Having lived my life again, I dedicate this book to my father with great love.” Olga Aroseva

The author expresses gratitude to N. M. Aroseva for her help in preparing the diaries of A. Ya. Aroseva

The author expresses gratitude to N. M. Aroseva for her help in preparing the diaries of A. Ya. p>