I have long forgotten how to experience fear. I lived according to clearly established plans and rules, not allowing myself pity and compassion, not thinking about others. I learned not to feel and was proud of my impenetrability. I didn't see myself as a killer, but as a conqueror doing what he had to do, until a young girl showed me my true colors. She became my oasis, instant, like a mirage, beautiful, like a dream, and the very weakness that I could not afford.Attention! 18+ The book contains obscene language and scenes of violence.