Being a born fighter and a “convinced nonconformist”, the author of this book has always accepted the challenge, not shying away from participating in the most desperate battles and the most HOPELESS WARRIORS, whether it be the uncompromising struggle to leave the USSR for Israel, the famous Doomsday War, which Yakov Kedmi went through in the battalion of Ehud Barak, in the same tank with the future prime minister, or work in the most secret Israeli intelligence service Nativ, which is considered "a kind of closed club of the ruling elite of the Jewish state." From all these battles, he emerged victorious, once again proving that there are no “hopeless wars” and a person “who does not bow to anyone or anything” is capable of accomplishing the impossible. Yakov Kedmi managed not only to break out from behind the Iron Curtain himself, but also, having become the director of Nativ, to achieve a radical change in Israeli policy - largely thanks to his efforts, a mass exodus of Jews from the USSR took place in the early 1990s.About all this - about resistance to the Soviet regime and the interdepartmental struggle in the Israeli establishment, about the victorious Doomsday War and the mistakes of the command that led to unjustified losses, about egregious cases of discrimination against Soviet Jews in Israel and the need for decisive reforms that should bring country from a systemic crisis,” Yakov Kedmi told in his memoirs, not avoiding the most sensitive topics and not being afraid to raise the most painful questions, the main of which is: “Is the current Jewish state worthy of its people?”