Funny, kind, hilarious, witty. This is exactly how the whole world knows Matthew Perry and his character from the series “Friends” Chandler Bing. With his jokes he can bring you to tears, with one phrase he can defuse the situation or absurdly but effectively crash to the floor. A joker, comedian and joker. But few people know the other Matthew. The one who suffered from alcohol and drug addiction for many years, the one who writhed and howled in pain, sobbed bitterly and was ashamed to look his loved ones in the eyes. Months spent in a hospital bed, coma, difficult rehabilitation, years in oblivion and struggle with oneself... This book is a true and frank story of the real Matthew Perry. A piercing confession and confession of all sins. Yes, he made mistakes in life. But the only thing he did right in his life was never give up and never give up. He will talk about everything: about the filming of Friends, his affair with Julia Roberts, about his illness, about the years of oblivion and hope for the future. Despite everything he has experienced, Matthew is still full of optimism and still cracks jokes and never stops smiling.