Pain and grief are always a personal burden. And words from the outside will not calm them down, will not dull them. It’s doubly mean and low to talk about compassion, having never in your life experienced or experienced what another is experiencing. I’m not a victim!... But I’m at the bottom. Already free. Still pretty. Almost unemployed. Temporarily sane. Hopeless infertile...This is a diagnosis! It's time to celebrate. Moreover, the New Year is just around the corner! It’s okay, I’m very proud - that’s why I’ll come up with a gift for myself! I’ll give it as a gift, unpack it, smile... and wash down happiness with tar...