Vivien Leigh began writing this book in a psychiatric clinic, where she ended up after the final break with Laurence Olivier - the marriage to the great actor ended for the Gone with the Wind star not just in divorce, but in a personal disaster. Neither alcohol, nor medicines, nor electric shocks saved from black depression and thoughts of suicide - no one would have recognized the former Scarlett O'Hara in this woman, blackened with grief, who, during the most severe attacks, repeated only: "For what ?!". Why did he break her heart and drive her to a madhouse? Why didn’t he rejoice at his wife’s successes, but envied her loud glory? How could he betray and leave, barely learning about her incurable illness? After all, Vivienne loved Lawrence more than her life, sacrificed everything for him, even her daughter from her first marriage - and he not only turned her house into hell, but also denounced her in his scandalous memoirs, presenting her as a psychopath and an alcoholic. She had to answer. She had to explain herself - not even with him, but with herself, in order to believe in herself and her gift again, to get rid of self-abasement and guilt. This is how this amazing book was born - the confession of an incredibly strong and talented woman who went through all the circles of family hell, escaped from the black pit of madness, literally rose from the ashes, having learned, like Scarlett, not to look back and not regret the past, but to say to herself: "I'll think about it tomorrow!"Publisher's layout of the book saved in PDF A4.