This is a collection of philosophical and autobiographical essays. The classic of modern Japanese literature, Itsuki Hiroyuki, reflects in this book about himself, about his generation of “children of the Second World War,” about what it was like to grow up in Japanese colonies on the mainland and grow old in the conditions of the current Japanese post-industrial society. Itsuki Hiroyuki tries to express his attitude to the eternal themes of existence: illness, old age, death, but he also simply tells stories from life. From a young age, oriented towards modernism and Western mass literature, towards the end of his life the writer came to the philosophy of Buddhist negativism. Together with the Japanese writer, we walk this path, learning many interesting details about modern Japanese society and its anxieties.