What you have in your hands is not exactly a diary. And not a series about sex in our city. Although everything will be here. And diary frankness, and five pounds of sex, and unhappy love, and everything that worries an independent thirty-year-old woman today. We want to bring body and soul to a single denominator, to find love without losing ourselves. What do I know about myself and about life, about men, sex and love? And, if I’m so smart, why am I lonely?..I offer you my personal story and try to understand my problems, but maybe they are not only mine?..* * *I have crossed the “fatal” female age - 30 years. What do I know now about myself and life? About men, sex and love? Why does this happen: there is love, there is sex, but there is no happiness? “Smart” girls study, work, and make a career. “Stupid” people get married and have children. But by the age of thirty, both of them feel like complete fools... If I’m so smart, why am I lonely? I achieved success, I made a career, but there was no happiness. This book is about the search for female happiness after thirty. I don't want to change, but I dream of changing my life. Is this real?