How often do you feel happy? Or maybe you didn’t feel it at all? Or you had a similar feeling, but you're not sure. What are you living for? Why did you wake up in the morning? To enjoy? Or maybe because I have to go to work. I've woken up for pleasure over the years, but everything comes with a price. In this book, I showed how many seemingly successful girls live in the 21st century. Beautiful, but what lies behind this beauty? I suffered from an eating disorder, worked as a prostitute, took drugs, and all this for just one thing - to get pleasure, for which I later had to pay. She traded her body for money, bought food, and then took drugs to forget. I lived like this for more than one year. But I coped with all this and I want to share my experience to prove that after black there is always white. You will learn many facts about prostitutes, drug addicts and bulimics, and you will also understand why you woke up today... Contains obscene language.