RJ Jacobs is not only a wonderful writer, but also a practicing psychologist. When it comes to revealing the inner world of characters, he has no equal. With surgical precision, he describes manic thoughts, obsession and grief - all things that are difficult for the average person to put into words. This gripping and sometimes creepy psychological thriller gets scarier with every page - it's so true. After years of trying to get control of her bipolar disorder, Emily Firestone is finally back to normal. Life begins to improve: she has a great job, her own apartment and a boyfriend, Paolo, who adores her. When he suggests taking a little boat trip this weekend, Emily agrees: wine, water and the man she loves - what could be better? The next morning after leaving, Emily wakes up - the boat is still floating with the current. And Paolo is suddenly gone. He could not drown. Every minute it becomes more and more difficult for Emily to maintain her sanity and stay afloat. Where did Paolo go?