The heroine of Yulia Gurina's novel, Nina, feels like she has lost herself and got lost in her own home. Second marriage, second child, maternity leave, lost ambitions, visible family well-being and a completely inappropriate underside. The heroine is brought out of her stupor by a chance meeting with her first love. Nina falls in love recklessly, like a person who believed that nothing amazing would ever happen in life. However, escaping into the dream turns out to be impossible. The author writes frankly about infantilism, capitulation to reality and the scary topic of HIV for many, which today is closer to each of us than we would like - honestly, extremely frankly. Accurate notes about today's life, packed into a sharp plot. Contains obscene language!