The first book of prose by the authoritative literary critic Valeria Pustova is a story without fiction. Extremely personal, documentary evidence of the simultaneous experience of death and motherhood. Dying and feeding, grief and celebration, despair and tenderness, infantilism and growing up go hand in hand in this book. The author managed to show from his own experience how the truth of life and the depth of happiness are found at the point of connection between “black” and “white”. And how life itself educates us while we learn to raise our children. This book is for those who are afraid of losing and learning to gain. The book of loss and love, which is more conscious and stronger at the fatal line.