Rolan Bykov (1929–1998) kept diaries from the age of fifteen until the very end of his life. Needless to say, the history of the country, theater and cinema unfolds before the reader, but above all – the story of a unique personality, a brilliant director (“Aibolit-66”, “Scarecrow”, “Telegram”) and actor (“The Overcoat”, “Andrei Rublev ”, “Check on the roads”, “Commissioner”, “Two comrades served”, “Letters from a dead man”, “From the life of vacationers”, “Low season”...). This book is striking in its frankness. “Furious Roland,” as his loved ones called him, kept notes for himself, without thinking about censorship or further publication. The reader is faced with a passionate, uncompromising nature - whether we are talking about art or personal relationships. “I’m beaten – I’ll start over!” - these words became the motto for Rolan Bykov for the rest of his life... The book is illustrated with rare photographs from the family archive.